My husband waxes
philosophical on Sunday mornings. Maybe it's the bathrobe, an ankle-length
navy-blue number that turns him into Obi-Wan Kenobi, the Star Wars
sage.
A dead ringer for Yoda, our
cat Sammy serves as silent witness to Fred's wisdom, while I dive into the
adventures on the comics pages. One recent Sunday, though, I surfaced in
time to catch Fred at the end of an oral essay on the wonders of budding
spring:
"Plum blossoms have such
a short mission in life," he said.
Drawn to missions with the
zeal of a Luke Skywalker, perpetual student of the Force, I joined Fred at
the window. The Japanese plum tree had exploded into full bloom, seemingly
overnight. Tiny white blossoms, already loosened by the wind, swirled like
snowflakes and drifted earthward.
They seemed to fulfill their
mission, however fleeting, without conflict. Come into being, do their
thing, move on. Like all of us, I thought. Except for the no conflict
part.
Struck by the enormity of our
brevity, I saw us all as plum blossoms, essentially innocent, each a part
of one tree, our lives short and swift as the fall from branch to grass. I
imagined Fred and Sammy with their faces peeking through white petal
frills, and swallowed back sudden tears. How, I wondered, can people not
be kind to each other when we'll all be gone in the next instant?
While Obi-Wan and Yoda
quickly resumed regular lives as banker and cat, I couldn't shake Luke.
Finally, on Wednesday I declared a Plum Blossom Day. For twenty-four hours
I'd see everybody as fellow plum blossoms, each contact (whether blessing
or lesson) essential to our mutual mission in life.
Everyone got the white-petal
frill treatment: the smiling fellow in the car in front of me at the
drive-up mailbox who took my letters and posted them along with his, the
moody waitress who didn't want me to switch to shrimp at lunch, the
skateboarder who saluted as he sailed past. With each I felt at peace, one
with the world, accepting of our individual contributions to the universal
whole.
Until late that afternoon.
While waiting at a stop sign,
I noticed a plum blossom on a bike to my right. When I looked left again,
a yellow metal wall occupied the space, dangerously close to my tiny red
compact.
The wall moved. My car's left
front fender crunched as the dump truck rolled over it, turned right onto
the thoroughfare, and shot down the street at warp speed. The woman on the
bike gestured wildly to me, then pedaled after the truck. Stunned but
mobile, I joined the chase.
Galaxies of traffic later
(the bike lady far behind and the truck lost to view), I backtracked to a
construction site where a guy with a stop/slow sign pointed out the most
recent yellow arrival.
"That was you?"
asked the truck driver, as I emerged from my crumpled car. "I thought
I ran over a curb."
"You ran over me, and
you kept going," I said, still too shocked to be angry.
"You shouldn't have been
there," he protested. "I didn't see you." He explained
something about big trucks and little cars.
"You ran over me, and
you kept going," I repeated.
Dropping to one knee, he drew
a diagram in the dust to illustrate how I must have wedged myself between
his truck and the curb. He pointed accusingly at me with the hand that
wasn't drawing pictures.
His dedication to proving his
innocence, no matter logic or physical evidence, rendered me
single-minded. "You ran over me," I said, "and you kept
going."
Police reports, insurance
company statements, auto body estimates, and forty-eight hours later, I
remembered Plum Blossom Day.
By then, the ground at the
base of the tree was white with fallen blossoms. I watched as the breeze
shook loose a few last flowers. Silently they floated, until a gust of
wind sent them bumping into each other, then away to fall separately
again. No guilt, no blame, no insurance claim.
I tried to figure how the
truck driver had missed seeing my car, until I realized my fantasy was
just another diagram in the dust. I, too, wanted to prove the unprovable.
Instead, in my mind's eye I
gave the truck driver the white frill treatment. And then I gave it to
myself, for we're all in this together.
Luke Skywalker knows. Beneath
the mask of every Darth Vader, just another plum blossom.
(This
story is one of 60 personal true stories in Lynne Whiteley Novys new
book Daring to Know What You Want
and Other Simple Truths (Open Secrets Press, March 2004), which has a
foreword on Understanding Story Power by Angeles. As you may recall, five
of Lynnes stories also appeared in Angeles book Signs
of Life: The Five Universal Shapes and How to Use Them. Youll find
more stories and information about the book on Lynnes website,
http://www.lucidmoments.com
)